Four Years Later...

So Bobbi tells me my experiment didn't work. I agree.

A lot has gone on since the beginning of the year. Dan and I bought our first home. I was "promoted" if you call it that (more work same pay-more people to baby sit) Dan started student teaching Seminary, and four years after trying to have a baby...we made one. :)

About three years ago Dan and I did some testing after tying to conceive for a year. Basically they told us when you are ready for fertility treatments then you can have a baby. Well, we didn’t feel ready for that and have continued to not feel ready for that for a few years now. We just figured, like the rest of our life has been that when it’s time we’ll feel it…but I guess we didn’t feel this coming.

This has been an interesting week. Dan and I have never felt bad for ourselves for not having a baby. In fact we kind of enjoyed being fancy free… I guess this is what we get then, huh? After we had our testing done we honestly accepted our life like that. We have been at peace and have felt that the Lord has guided our lives for the best and it has been THE BEST!!

Last Wednesday I got the strangest feeling. It wasn’t my boobs killing me, although now I realize maybe that was part of it but I just had “this feeling.” I don’t track my period because we weren’t trying to get prego. So I tried to remember when I had my last period. I realized it had been in May..

If any of you have struggled to get pregnant you already understand what I am about to explain. To take or not to take the test…that is the question?

I HATE taking pregnancy tests. I hate feeling like I am going to be let down while at the same time being a little excited and then feeling stupid for being excited because you just KNOW the sure fire way to start your period is to take a pregnancy test. I was at work when I just felt like I HAD to take a test. I left work and headed to good old Wally World—and guess who I run into; my wonderful sister, Bobbi with 5 kids in tow. She smiled at me and I just started to cry. She laughed and gave me a hug and said “you’re totally pregnant.” I just felt stupid. I knew that I wasn’t pregnant but I just had to take this test t. I didn’t know why. Maybe this was the Lord’s way of showing me I wanted to move forward with further testing or something. I didn’t even tell Dan I was going to take the test because I knew it would be negative.

I drove back to work and went for it. I put the stupid thing in my desk and didn’t look at it for 10 minutes. I almost just threw it away…but then I looked and about passed out. Pregnant. (Enter freak out!) Totally out of the blue, surprise, crazy, whatever words I can describe. I just sat on my office floor shut the door, and cried. I called Dan who was luckily on his way back from Boise from a CES training and told him to come by my work. I was crying so he thought I got fired or something. When he showed up he was just as surprised as I was. He first asked me “How did this happen?” Lol! I could tell you but you already know. J

After this weekend and the initial shock and a couple more tests later (just to make sure-the picture) we are so excited to be expecting a little one. What a miracle and blessing for us!! I am about 9 weeks along according to the Dr. and I feel great.

Yay for us!!